...i will find........

i wanna make someone happy....
i wanna see someone smile....
i wanna see those tears of happiness....
i wanna see those grateful eyes....
i wanna be the reason.....
i don't care if m the reason....
i wanna know d reason...
i know somewhere inside me it lies...

i wanna do that to myself....i wanna do that to a stranger...
that ecstasy in the eyes....that longing to hug someone tight...
that desire to cry happy.....that desire to jump to the sky n above..
that feeling that your heart's gonna burst....
i wanna show someone that loving is what i love..

i long to be the reason...i long to have that power...
i know it resides in me...i just need to find that key...!
i will keep tryin ...coz i know thats what keeps up my drive....
i will keep tryin ....coz to find that moment i will  strive....


i keep tryin....
n one day i will find...................

i quit my job.....wise or stupid..!??!

Yes, as mentioned earlier i resigned from my job in September, and I am at home since the beginning of the month..And I am wondering 'Did i do the right thing..?'..
For some background  I would like to mention here that I am a physiotherapist but was working in a very reputed hospital since the last one year.
As I was working there, I started to realize that I was becoming more and more frustrated as the time passed. I had uneven uncomfortable shifts. I had almost no social life and i had night shifts too. Well, I guess everyone with a medical background would feel that this is what happens with them too ..but they dont quit..! They hang in there, slowly and slowly trying to make this a 'given' in their lives.
Call me stupid or call me unambitious or lame....but I am not someone who would give away their peace of mind for something as temporary as a job..! I wanna be happy..and my happiness lies in the little things that we do when we are relaxed and are actually observing life...I agree that some of you would choose a job over some peace of mind which 'you can achieve once you have accomplished earning some more money'....but when I prioritized, I figured that that's not for me..!
Maybe I am one of those lucky ones...I can actually afford to give away my job (in terms of the monetary aspect).But I don't think I need to live under the burden of not doing justice to myself just because I am one of those privileged ones.

I may be lame....
But i chose...........
And  I am HAPPY..!



P.S: Here is the pic of some yummm Italian style peas and baked potatoes with a hint of oregano and chaat masala I made yesterday...! Check out the pic...and share your views....

what is being 'too emotional'...!?!?

hey...
A few days back a friend of mine said that i was 'emotional'..and he said it in a way that implied that I wasnt supposed to be 'emotional'...! Although, he derived his much craved fun at pulling my leg and irritating me but it left me thinking a lot about what exactly people mean when they say you are emotional..!

See, I am from a medical background and I have psychology for a year in college , and from what i  understand about 'Human behavior and emotions', I believe that human behavior is a composite of various emotions that they experience. These emotions can be anger, love , gratitude , happiness or jealousy and so on.
Therefore, in my opinion expressing your emotions is an essential part of being a normal human being..! You know..that is an essential part of our 'being'...! In fact, the people who suppress their emotions either react to certain situations inappropriately or eventually end up getting professional help..

I also wonder sometimes that if we were to hide our emotions, what would life become..? No gratitude...no fights between jealous friends....no missing each other and making up after those fights......and no romantic moments...!!! I mean, it would just take away all those beautiful and real moments that really mean that we are 'alive'..!
I read somewhere and have also observed that if we keep our emotions bottled up for a long duration, those cramped up feelings will find a way out through your mouths or your actions in a much worse way than could have been in the first place... I think that would be a much more sorry state to be in...!

There are certain psychological disorders also which entail reacting to certain circumstances in life in an abnormal way , but what I referred to in the above paragraphs pointed at the usual normal circumstances.

Here is a small questionairre that you would like to go through:

1. Do people, not only family members tell you that you are too emotional ?
2. In an over-heated moment, do you tend to take impulsive decisions that you later on regret?
3. Do you have many arguments and blow up easily?
4. Do friends and relatives handle you with kid gloves?
5. Do your emotions suck the life out of you, change easily and quickly, and generally whip you around?
6. Do you weep and often in the absence of major setbacks or great losses? (I'm not talking about a tear or two but more gut-wrenching)

If you have answered too many of these in affirmative , you may want to seek counselling.

In the end, i would just like to add that life is challenging. But we need to be humans and empathetic and symapthetic towards our own lives and of others. Because, without that our lives would be a cold computation of everything around....

And so, I choose to be human......!!!
And, I choose to express.....!!!!

Cheers..! :)

my new-found hotspot in d 'haat' of delhi..!

Hey people...!
Today was a really busy day for me......but it also gave me one of those moments when you accidentally see the reflection of that corner of your heart that had long been forgotten amidst the daily hustle-bustle of life..
Confused...?!?hehe...let me spell it out..
I really hadn't got much sleep last night for some stupid reason..and therefore, when i woke up this morning I wasnt really feeling energetic the way i like to feel for a 'gooooooood morning'..! I ran some errands in the morning , made some delicious pulao for lunch (again..!) and was just starting to make up my mind for catching some sleep when i got a text from a friend of mine for some outing....After much contemplation, we decided to visit the 'Delhi Haat'...
There is one more thing that i'd like to mention here..The people who know me know that i dont really go out with my little sister (who happens to be 11yrs younger than me..!). But to my mom's n my sister's surprise, i actually agreed to take her out with me..So she called another friend of hers. Now there were the 4 of us; me, my friend, my sister and her friend..!
Now we reached Delhi Haat around 3o'clock..Also, since navratras are going on...we could not have any of our kind of yummy food...(which loosely translates into CHICKENNNN...!!) So, we had some chhole bhature and stuff and just found a nice spot where we could sit and talk and make fun of all the funnily clad people there..!! (devil face..!!)...So we sat there for a good 1 hour , had some kulfi and did some more gossiping..!
Then in search of some good gol gappas, we went to 'punjabi rasoi' which is in a corner away from all the shor sharaba...!That area of Delhi Haat actually seemed much more hygienic than a lot of other corners. Then right there i found my adventure of the day..! Next to that place i saw a small play area where there were some slides, some swings and some of that stuff. It wasnt really a very elaborate area but was good for some fun time. As soon as we could get hold of those swings , we just sat on them and spread our wings and closed our eyes to a flashback of our childhood..! I couldnt help but go back almost 15 yrs when we used to go to children's park near india gate and played on the swings till our bodies ached and mom dad dragged us out of that park..!! It was just a taste of those golden days when there were no worries except some home work from school and what i was gonna eat when i rushed to the kitchen....With each thrust forward on that swing, my heart sang...'lalla la lalla la...'..!! Believe me...i was a child once again and i loved it...!!!
That unexpected experience totally relaxed and re-energised me...!
I think i have indeed found one place where i'd go back again and again....as my 'go-to' when i am in search of some destressing...!!
Here are a few pics of the day......

dats me n my friend..!

dats d big giant tunnel i was riding..!

the sliiiiide....!!!!

well...dats the one on the swing..!!heaven..!

I hope you guys check out that place for yourself and see and experience what i did today...!!
I hope you have just as much fun as i had..!

Till next time.......stay happy...!!


P.S: Sorry about the bad picture quality...they were taken from my sister's phone...

......my obsession...!!

Hey.....Hows d sunshine..!?
Well...the day is going pretty good for me..! I have absolutely been enjoying my day...relaxing...and cooking..!!
Conforming with my self-confessed obsession with using rice in my cooking...I again made something with rice-an indian Fried rice dish..! Well, the good thing about this is that I used leftover boiled rice from last night..!
Here's how they looked....

So, if u guys would be a little interested in what all i put in it...here's how it went:
First, i chop some capsicum, tomatoes and garlic (lots of garlic..!). Also, i sliced one onion, soaked some soya nuggets and microwaved some peas.....Then , i took some oil in a wok. Put mustard seeds in it. Once they spluttered, i added the chopped garlic and sauteed it. After that, i put the chopped onions and sauteed them too till they were a little pink. Then i added my chopped tomatoes and some chopped green chilli. I like my food a little spicy and i like to have some innovation while i cook....so, i added some readymade  'aloo masala'..!!tada...!! I put some regular seasoning as well...This was followed by capsicum, peas and the soaked nuggets...Then i put the boiled rice...Cooked it a little...Sprinkled lots of coriander and some dash of lemon...!!!!And VOILA....!! The most yummy rice....!!(Psst...i say that every time i look at what i make...!! )


Well, i hope you liked my yummy rice as much as me..!!
Till next time.....
Be happy...!!


P.S: I apologise for the sloppy pics...i know i could have done better...!! But it was just too tempting and i just could not wait any longer to eat it down..!! (which i did in about...5 mins...!!)

Hey guys....
I remember I promised myself that i will write more often... and there were two reasons for it..Firstly, coz thanks to one of my bestie I wanted to maintain this blog that I created about 2 yrs back and secondly, and more importantly , I LOVE writing...!
Having said that, I also realise that I havnt been able to keep my promise time and again..!And I repeatedly apologise to myself for dis...(coz der are not many readers here to apologise to...!! ;) hehe..!)

So, here I am today...again on dis endeavour of keeping my promise dis time..!

There is not much to say actually...today I can just tel u about wats been happening these days...
So, here goes the list:

1. I QUIT FROM MY JOB...!!! Yaaaaaaaaay...!  well it may sound a little weird to some.. I mean usually people are not really dis happy on leaving der jobs..esp wen dey hav no other source of income...! But I guess m not really one of those people...m I..!?! ;) Let me explain a little..Although I was working for a very reputed brand of hospitals,  it wasnt making me any happier..I was stuck in weird and boring and uncomfortable shifts (which included night shifts too..!). So, eventually I figured that der was no point working in a place that did not give me any kind of personal or professional satisfaction....Better sense prevailed and I resigned...!    (pssst......I am not one of those who r okay wid just earning money even if dey dont have an ounce of happiness in der blood..!)
2. So, no job now and lots of time at hand..! Dis precious time I plan to utilise for all d things dat I always wanted to do but cudnt coz of my shitty job..!! Firstly, I have again started taking driving lessons and hopefully dis time I will not let it go waste and will actually become a gud driver...!
3. Well m a fooodie....a big time one..!N I love to cook too....n if i can say so myself...a not so bad one..!So , I cook with all my might..I search d net...search my own compilation...n cook cook cook..!!Nothing makes me as happy...! (plz dnt have any high hopes..i cook normal daily eatable home food..with just some of my innovations...) Like yesterday i made some yummy mixed veg pulao...n I added all the possible veggies dat wer available in my fridge...these included peas, onions, tomatoes, potatoes, beans, carrots , capsicum , soya nuggets and brinjal..!!

dats bhindi...sundar aloo and my sundar pulao..!!

I hope it doesnt luk too bad..! dis is my comfort food..! 

Well...so there it is...life is moving...and  m flowing with it....better than earlier..!

So..dis is it for now guys...

Till next time..(and i hope dats soon...!)

love...b happy u all...! :)